I Suppose.

When i die,

i think i want to be in some sort of...

freak accident,

or some madman massacre.

Then they might make a movie of my life.

Or i could feature in a dismal story.

Well, i wouldn't actually feature,

cause i'd be dead.

But i'd have someone playing me.

I wonder who it would be.

Justin Bieber could get in on the acting gig,

i suppose.

Smile Worthy.

I Wanna Do You. ;P

I wanna surprise you

with the biggest bouquet of white roses

you have ever seen in your life.

Deliver and say nothing.

Kiss you and run away.

I wanna cover your eyes from behind

and for you to be able to tell it's me

by the smell of my cologne on my wrists.

I wanna sit in the bath with you

with candles and pizza

and talk about nothing and everything at the same time

until the water goes cold

but were too focused on each other to realise.

I wanna spend hours on end just kissing you

until my lips are at the point of falling off

and we have to take a break for me to grow new ones.

I wanna go on a picnic in the sun

(i suppose we should wait until Summer)

and gaze in silence at the clouds

while holding your hand.

I wanna have stupid romantic inside jokes with you

that only we understand.

I wanna get romantically drunk with you

and laugh at you for no reason

apart from that i'm amazed by your presence

so much that it makes me giddy.

I wanna kiss you in the rain.

I wanna kiss you in the snow.

I wanna hold you in my arms when we sleep

until i get sick of having no space

and push you away

soon to realise that i miss you.

I wanna be the most romantic person both of us have ever met.

And then i wanna do what you wanna do to me.

I wanna do you. ;P

Please Be Careful.

Every year,

approximately 2,500 left handed people are killed,

by using objects or machinery designed for right handed people.

You are left handed.

Please be careful.

But Is Hardly Seen.

She says my smile is like a rainbow.

Beautiful.

But is hardly seen.

"I'm Sick."

"I'm sick of this."

"Sick of what?"

"I'm sick of being sick."

"You're sick?"

"I am. "

"What do you mean?"

"I'm sick.

I'm heart sick.

I'm mind sick.

I'm stomach sick.

I'm sick."

"James?"

"Sometimes i forget myself.

Who i am.

Sometimes i forget to follow my heart.

I don't know why it happens.

I want to stop forgetting."

"James?"

"Yes?"

"Stop having a conversation with yourself.

It makes you seem weird."

"I'm not weird.

I'm sick."

I Will Not Wake,

I have nothing to say about today.

I have no feelings about it.

I have no opinions.

I just want to sit,

and not think.

Sleep,

and not dream.

And fingers crossed,

i will not wake.

Why Couldn't We Have Stayed Close?

Forget-me-not's have always been my favourite flower.

Most people don't even notice them in the grass and weeds.

But they ALWAYS catch my eye.

Just like i caught yours.

I felt like a forget-me-not.

Small.

Un-noticed.

Often mistreated.

But at the same time,

You made me feel like a forget-me-not.

Beautiful.

Precious.

Colourful.

And you know what?

That was the complete honest truth.

You made me feel on top of the world,

if i ever hit rock bottom.

And you were the only one willing to try and make me feel that way.

Why couldn't we have stayed close?

Incredible People.

Name 20 people you can think of right off the top of your head.

Then answer the questions about them.

People:

1, Melissa.

2, Ashley.

3, Kate.

4, Mum.

5, Dad.

6, Ethan.

7, Corey.

8, Shyann.

9, Nick.

10, Jason.

11, Petey.

12, Jeremy.

13, Claire.

14, Joy.

15, Benno.

16, Leah.

17, Chelsea.

18, Tom.

19, Tanner.

20, Catelyn.

Questions:

When did you meet 13?

When her ex tried to beat the shit outta me on New Years.

What would you do if you had never met 6?

I'd be an only child.

What would you do if 11 and 18 dated?

Seeing as ages are seven and twenty, i'd be disgusted.

Would number 4 and 16 make a good couple?

My mum and a thirteen year old? Nope.

Describe 15 in one word.

Swiss.

If you could marry anyone between 2 and 10 who will it be?

Kate.

Did you ever like 17?

Yeah.

Have you ever seen 7 cry?

Seen? Nope.

What would you tell 8 right now?

That i'm sorry.

Tell me something about 19.

Known him my whole life.

What's 14's favorite color?

*shrugs*

What would you do if 12 just confessed they liked you?

I'd be shocked that he liked guys xD

When was the last time you talked to number 3?

Today.

How do you think 9 feels about you?

He's thinks i'm awesome :D i mean, duh.

Who is 20 going out with?

Some cock.

How old is 5?

Old.

What is 20's favorite music?

Bullshit.

Would you ever date 19?

Nope.

Is 18 single?

Yeah.

What is 17's last name?

Ranga? Hah. No. It's Carter.

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 16?

I suppose.

What is 15 scared of?

Nothing. He's tuff as.

Where does 14 live?

Upstairs.

What is the best thing about 13?

She's adorable.

What would you like to tell 12 right now?

To clean up his mess.

How did you meet 11?

I had to move in with him (:

What would you do without 10?

Idk. But i'd have some less embarrassing photos.

When was the last time you saw 9?

A weeks ago.

What reminds you of 8?

Vanilla Twilight.

How long have you known 7?

I don't recall O.o

What annoys you most about number 6?

I don't get to see him much.

What is number 5's favourite movie?

Fucked if i know.

Would number 4 survive trapped on an island?

Most likely.

Have you met number 3's parents?

Yeah.

Does number 2 have their natural hair colour right now?

Half.

Have you meet any grandparents?

Number 1's, 2's, 6's, 19's and 20's.

Have you stayed at number 1's house?

To many times to count.

Have you ever had a sexual dream about number 11?

Ew no. He's like seven.

Is number 17 addicted to anything?

Being unique.

What colour bedroom walls does number 12 have?

White.

Have you gotten drunk with number 5?

No. But we've both been drunk, at the same time.

Does number 20 have any pets?

A dog.

Do you have number 4's phone number?

Indeed.

Does number 6 have a car?

Nope, too young.

Have you used number 16's shower?

Nope.

Does number 7 have a single or double bed?

I don't know.

What annoying habit does number 15 have?

He mumbles a lot.

When was the last time number 8 made you laugh?

Awhile ago.

Do you like number 14's hair?

Not really xD

Does number 3 have any piercings?

Nose, tongue, bellybutton.

Would number 18 rather be able to fly, or breath under water?

Fly.

Do you personally know all these people?

Nope.

Would you date number 2?

Yes.

Would you marry number 1?

In a heartbeat.

Do you think number 19 is attractive?

Yes.

Has number 13 seen you naked?

Yeah.

Have you seen number 9 naked?

Pretty much xD

Have you ever played a prank on number 10?

Yeah.

How often does number 14 swear?

Never.

Type number 15's name using your elbow.

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Would you trade lives with number 1?

Definitely.

What sports does number 11 play?

He used to play soccer.

Have you ever played poker with number 5?

Nope.

Is number 13 spoiled by their parents?

I think so.

Has number 3 ever broken a bone?

Nope.

Has number 20 ever cooked for you?

Nope. I used to cook for her.

Is number 8 taller or shorter then you?

Shorter.

Does number 17 have a tattoo?

Yeah. A lizard on her foot.

Has number 18 had braces?

Yes?

Has number 6 had glasses?

Nope.

Would number 4 get plastic surgery if they could?

Yeah.

Does number 16 live at home?

Yeah.

Are number 12's parents together?

Yeah.

Is number 19's laugh annoying?

Nope.

Is number 9 from the same country as you?

Yeah.

Have you ever played spin the bottle with any?

Numbers 1,2,3,9,10,13,17,18 and 20.

Have you ever had a heart to heart with number 2?

Yeah.

Have you ever dated number 7?

Nope.

Would you?

Yeah!

How far do you live from 8?

A whole other island.

Have you been in an arguement with number 1?

Yeah.

Have you been in a fist fight with number 3?

Nope.

Does number 17 keep their promises?

Yeah.

Has number 5 ever lied to you?

Plenty.

Does number 8 still go to school?

Yeah.

Would you give up your life for any these people?

All.

But It's Killing Me Better.

Thoughts right now:

If i lie,

my nose will grow.

That's why i always tell the truth.

Speak my mind.

Follow my heart.

No lies.

Not to myself,

that is.

Puppet.

Remind yourself what you're capable of.

We forget our things sometimes.

Keys get lost.

Appointments get missed.

Goals get abandoned.

Focus.

If you're 18-21 years old.

If you like Tupac or Biggie.

If you listen to KDAY.

If you're "scene" as shit.

Just shave your whole head already.

The gulf of Mexico oil slick makes me feel so upset.

Why are we destroying this beautiful planet,

in the name of money,

greed,

and control?

"A person's a person,

no matter how small."

With so many options in life,

i don't understand why so many people take the simplistic route.

Live a little.

Stop grazing.

The minute you settle for less then you deserve,

you get even less then you settled for.

Last but not least.

Everything feels pointless without you.

Sleeping to sleep.

Eating to eat.

Living to love.

I've been killing time.

But it's killing me better.